BFN #4

My period came a day early this time.  So, not pregnant.

My girlfriend held me while I cried.  God, I cried so hard.  Thick, hot tears.

I knew this wouldn't be easy.  Nothing is easy for me.

But still.

Later we went out to the farm for a Virgo Birthday Luau.  Snuggled with the littles who came with their parents, talked with other friends who are also wishing for babies, drank all the wine I wanted, and slept snuggled up with a sweet lady under the stars.

In which Aunt Flo Visits My House of Fun

Okay, 3 BFNs and I still wasn't convinced that the tests were right.  I mean, My period was two days late, I felt like crap, and even my acupuncturist winked at me when he was talking about "healthy" reasons that my pulse might be up.

And then I started spotting, and then, well, it was a gusher.  So, yeah.  Those tests were right.  Not pregnant for realzies.

So, today I have a sushi date, and then I'm going to spend the weekend with friends at a cabin in the woods picking huckleberries.  This will be healing, I'm quite convinced, especially if there is wine involved.

In the meantime, I will working on visualization, setting up, and talking to this babe like it's already here.  And I'm sure that the Syringe-Wielding Goddess will be down with having her hands in my junk again.

Onward!

BFN #2

Negatory, good buddy.

Too bad, because I kinda wanted an Aquarius babe.

BFN

First off, I have to say that I love women in ties.  Do the security guards at my office have any idea how much I love to watch them?  My heart flutters.

In other news, not pregnant.  My cycle is longer than it has been previously, so it's going to take a little bit of fuzzy math to figure out when my fertile days are for April.

In any case, fertility quest onward!