Twue Wuv

Tonight, as we were walking back to our house from dinner (YES! Our new house is dinner-walkable to many places!), DM says to me she says,

"Honey, you're my dream girl.  You're girly and manly all at the same time, and so much more."

Can't ask for much better!

House Hunt!

The DM and I are looking to move in together sometime in March, which means the house-hunt starts now! 

Our list looks something like this:
3 bedrooms
A yard, big and sunny enough for a garden
Lots of storage
A nice kitchen
Counter space in the bathroom
Maybe a fireplace?
Maybe a covered patio?
Close to services (bank, grocery, etc)
Under $1300/mo

DM and I compiled lists of listings off Craigslist, Zillow, and OregonLive and compared pros and cons.  We see our first house later today!

Wish us luck!  --Big Dyke Mama

Well, HELLO 2014!

Happy New Year!

A lot has happened in the past few months, so let me fill you in.  And I won't wait so long next time.

I started dating again.  

But that's not exactly what happened.  

My friend V was approached on Ye Olde OKC by the Darling M.  But V, selfless as she is, said Darling M should check out the profile of one Big Dyke Mama.  Funny thing that Darling M and I had been checking out each others' profiles for years and had never done anything about it.  Huh!

So the Darling M (let's just shorten that up to DM) and I went on a date, then another, then another, then another.  And then we were girlfriends.  And then the L-bomb was dropped.

And there was much rejoicing in all the land!

DM is smart and funny and weird and sweet.  And HAWT.  And she wants kids as much as I do.  SCORE.

So, while we've been growing our relationship, we've also been talking about paths toward motherhood.  I could go into detail here, but I won't; it could fill whole other blog posts.

Anyway, one thing we are both interested in is adopting out of Foster Care.  We attended an Adoption Information Fair put on by Adoption Mosaic in November, which cemented things for us.  Tomorrow we attend an Adoption Orientation through Boys & Girls Aid.

The timing feels good.  Last week was the one-year anniversary of losing Homer.  It was an awful day, but things continue to look brighter.  Onward, friends!

Just put me to bed.

I am really over-tired lately.  I mean, really, I'm growing a whole new organ AND a whole new person.  This is hard work and lovely work that my body is doing.

I broke up with my girlfriend today.  Let's just say it's me and not her, and I hope we stay friends, because she's awesome.

I just need to go to bed and sleep off the day.

I think I'd better eat a little more protein first.

Here We Go!

Did I mention that we're having a tough week?  Blah.

We were able to get in three inseminations (Monday, Tuesday and Thursday), and that was all we could muster in our SHOCK AND AWWWW strategy amidst the chaos.  I'm feeling pretty confident, and just trying to carry on business-as-usual.

My girlfriend and I were able to go out on a real date last night -- it had been about three weeks due to the various nonsense going on in our respective lives.  I ate my fish portion for the week, as now I have to start eating for Schrodinger's Zygote.  I also had an adult beverage, but don't tell anyone (what?  It's not like anything would have implanted yet).

This afternoon is prayers at M.O.L.'s place.... I have handfuls of people I need to pray for today, including myself.

Would appreciate any and all smooth-sailing and baby-shaped thoughts and prayers you want to send out into the Universe!  Welcome to the TWW!

BFN #4

My period came a day early this time.  So, not pregnant.

My girlfriend held me while I cried.  God, I cried so hard.  Thick, hot tears.

I knew this wouldn't be easy.  Nothing is easy for me.

But still.

Later we went out to the farm for a Virgo Birthday Luau.  Snuggled with the littles who came with their parents, talked with other friends who are also wishing for babies, drank all the wine I wanted, and slept snuggled up with a sweet lady under the stars.